I will be participating in NaNoWriMo

I have decided that this year I will commit to NaNoWriMo. I am excited and worried I will get bored, but I think a little discipline is what I need. 50,000 words in one month.

Anyone else planning to get involved?

Let's Talk About...The "S" Word

Not that S word...

Suicide.

Yes, that horrible, terrible "S" word.

I have avoided this topic like a plague.

I do not want to talk about it.

I want to pretend it does not exist.

But it does. As last week was Suicide Prevention Week and I just now found out, I think it is time we talked.

Robin Williams ended his life recently. The whole world knows what happened to the beloved Williams. What is glossed over is that he took his own life. Dead from suicide.

Over the summer I found out a former high school teacher of mine decided to end his life at the young age of 33. I did not care of this teacher, but I do not believe anyone deserves to feel so hopeless they take their own life. Death by suicide.

Back when I was a freshman in high school, a classmate of mine's brother took his own life. A suicide.

Back when I was days from graduating high school, a man, whom went to my old church at the time, ended his life. Another suicide.

At the start of a spring semester, a professor at my college found out he had terminal cancer and decided to end his own life. Another suicide.

Today I found out a former neighbor of mine took her own life yesterday. She was just 14. One more tragic suicide.

I cannot talk about suicide without talking about the evil that is depression.

Depression is a very stigmatized illness. Most mental illnesses are because we have this idea that it is easily helped. Society has an overall idea that mental illnesses are controllable and we can fix it on our own.

Just do not be sick. Just not be sad. Just be happy.

It is not that easy. It is like something grasps at you. It grates at you. Mentally, emotionally, depression will wear you down. It makes you believe you are worthless and everything is hopeless. It is a battle against your own mind. And depression is not one to give up so easily.

The brain is the most complex organ in the human body. So little is still known about how the mind works. There a lot of chemicals and wiring and signals that go into the functions of the brain. Too little, too much, one little fault in the wiring, or a mixed signal can turn the mind off-kilter. It is far more complicated than just being happy and not sad.

When someone chooses to end their own life, those left behind are left with an array of complex emotions and feelings. It is a death of a loved one, so there is always that grief of loss and an awareness that they are gone. In addition to trying to come to terms and accept the loss, those left behind have to wonder what went wrong. How did they not notice? Why did they leave the person alone? Did they do something, say something, to push them over the edge? Maybe they could have stopped it, prevented it somehow. Maybe they could have said something, done something to stop it. Then there is anger at the person who ended their life because how could they do that to them? How could they hurt you like this, hurt the family like this? The questions continue. There are not any real answers when it comes to this type of death.

If only...

If only...

We never know what is going on inside the mind of others. They may look put together, but inside they may be falling apart. I believe it was Plato who said, "Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." Life is hard for just about everyone.

If you know someone suffering from depression, be a friend. There is always hope. Everything that goes down, must go back up.

If you or someone you love are showing the following warning signs

• Talking about wanting to die or to kill themselves.
• Looking for a way to kill themselves, such as searching online or buying a gun
• Talking about feeling hopeless or having no reason to live.
• Talking about feeling trapped or in unbearable pain.
• Talking about being a burden to others.
• Increasing the use of alcohol or drugs.
• Acting anxious or agitated; behaving recklessly.
• Sleeping too little or too much.
• Withdrawing or isolating themselves.
• Showing rage or talking about seeking revenge.
• Displaying extreme mood swings.

Please seek help ASAP

Call the following numbers anytime
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For all other countries, please refer to this site for your local hotline. 

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My First Hindu Holiday

Today is Ganesh Chaturthi, a Hindu Festival celebrating Lord Ganesh.

Lord Ganesha is the son of Shiva and Parvati and considered a supreme god among the gods.

Ganesh is a favored god for he is the god of wisdom, helps prevent calamities and also removes obstacles to success.

Many people take in an idol of Lord Ganesh to pray to for a time and then have a procession to immerse the idol in a beach or river.

I found this idea for those who desire to make their own idols. I will remember it for next year.
http://www.ganeshchaturthi.com/How-You-Can-Prepare/Eco-Friendly-Idols.htm

Therapeutic Thursday-Juicing...Sorta

I tried mixing some fresh fruits and vegetables together. After all, I can always eat more produce.

The results were less than appetizing...

Any juice/blends you found appealing.

Wordless Wednesday-Pics from May Surgery

Anniversary Post

Today my parents celebrated 30 years together.

I hope they have many more years to come, but with my father's diagnosis, I do not know. I really hope the progression slows down and he gets to spend a lot of time with his future in-laws and grandchildren that are to come.

Sharing Stuff Saturdays-Lupron

So, I have endometriosis. I have had surgery and this week I am starting Lupron. I got injection one on Wednesday.

I am having bad cramps and light menstrual period as of yesterday. They said it may get worse, but my doctor told me she never had that complaint. Guess I will be the first because I have many complaints. So far I hate this medicine.

I have had leg cramps and menstrual cramps. Today I will just irritated and mad and just all around angry. I feel like I might just explode. I am not used to feeling like this and I don't like it. The feeling that you want to just tear someone's head off and you don't know why. Yeah, that feeling. I have never been one to get any real PMS symptoms. More of an, ''I don't feel well, please leave me alone'' due to severe pain and exhaustion in the past. So, I have never been known to be moody before my cycles. But now I am moody. Moody is not how anyone I know would describe me.

I have three months on this shot. I may change my mind, but right now, the second shot is up in the air. I was not supposed to have any periods following surgery, but I am now, so not sure how this medicine may help. I so wish they could have tried to clear the tubes without this medicine. Perhaps the depo would have been better in the long run.

Whatever the next step hold, what I do know is I am exhausted. I just want to sleep for days. Not even having to do with depression, but just physical exhaustion.

And my uterus currently feels like it might spontaneously combust. It feels like it is swollen and mad at me. I feel ya uterus. That endometrium tissue should have just gone out like it was supposed to every month and none of this would be happening. It just had to swim against the tide and cause us trouble.

Ugh, when will it be October?

Therapeutic Thursdays-Daily Routine

Today I find myself working to get into somewhat of a routine.

1-In the morning, I do yoga and relaxation before eating.


etsy.com poster-https://www.etsy.com/listing/77342119/sun-salutation-yoga-poster?utm_source=Pinterest&utm_medium=Internal_UK&utm_campaign=Merch

and pretend I am flexible enough to do these yoga poses...



yeah...right.

2-I do some exposure and test my anxiety level.

Emetophobia Exposure

Virtual Reality-Acrophobia Exposure

3-Work on breathing techniques if nervous.

        4-7-8 is one I learned. You breathe in through your nose slowly to the count of four, hold to the count of seven and then slowly, without forcing, breathe out to the count of eight.

*Note-I do not endorse Dr. Weil or his methods, this is simply an example of the technique. I only do it when an anxiety attack may be imminent. It works to prevent your breathing from getting heavy and short and also focuses on the breathing and counting and not on the thing that is causing the anxiety. Which is why it helps.

       I also like the 5-5-5 rule, where you find five things you see, five things you feel, five things you hear, five things you smell. You can eliminate one that could cause more anxiety. For example, if someone throws up, smelling will not be helpful. It someone is giving you a spider to hold, what you feel will not likely help you.

4-I do some exercises and walk a dog or two as well depending on the weather.

       This last one is great for both anxiety and depression and overall physical health.



What do you do to better yourself everyday?

Sharing Saturdays-Lemons

Sometimes it just seems that no matter what you do or try, you just cannot get where you want to go.

Believe you can do anything. Nothing can stop you. Nothing is impossible. You can be anything you want to be.

Except when you can't. Except when it is impossible. Except when the world stops you. Except when life hands you things outside of your control.

When life hands you lemons, make lemonade they say. Except that without sugar and water, your lemonade will just be sour and bitter.

Life is a lot like lemonade. Water is the day to day living, the monotony, the normal times. Sugar is the good times of life, the sweetness. The lemons are the bad or negative times of life, the sour and bitterness.

I suppose this Saturday is downer type of day. It's very hot and humid out and more bad news keeps flooding in.

Sometimes we just want good news for once. Just some good news.



-Photo from Wikimedia Commons. Neither I nor the author endorse one another. 


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Finding Peace

Each day brings more peace and more chaos.

Each day I am coming to acceptance of my reality.

Each day I must weight the risks and benefits of my treatment plan.

Each day there is a little sorrow and a little happiness

Each day I think about my future and if it will be what I always thought it would.

Each day I grow both stronger and weaker.

The journey is long. The journey is hard. The journey is life. Short as it is.

It is hard, but I try to not dwell on what is beyond my control. I like to be in control. That's where the anxiety gets me. Control. I fight for it. I desire it. I can't stand not having it. But the fear of losing control has created a lack of control in my own mind and body. It is keeping me trapped. Keeping me from moving forward. Keeping me from acceptance. There is not freedom when everyday is a battle for control within myself.

Only I can win this fight against myself. Only I can determine my future. I have all the control I need and it's time I use it. I will win this fight. I won't back down.

My fears will not hold me back any longer. They've taken my past. They cannot have my future.

Each day I am healing. And growing. I feel well within my mind and body. I have been empowered.

Exposure therapy part 1...

At one point my phobia was so bad that the words vomit, barf, puke, throw up, blow chunks-can I just say that this just sounds gross to say in general regardless of emetophobia, regurgitate, to get sick, nauseated, nausea, and all the other words associated with vomiting. Reading them had me in a panic. I could not read it, hear it read, write it, nothing. It was all so scary to me. But with age, I began to do my own exposure therapy that way. Years of has gotten me to the point that I am not bothered about it in books or writing about it any longer.

So I have gotten over the early stages of the worst parts of having emetophobia. However, I am still uneasy at any image or video that involved vomit.

My next stage is to go be able to see cartoons/fake images without any worry. I still get uneasy if I see it, though I can stop a panic attack from beginning, unlike where I am with real puke yet, even TV/movie people vomit that is clearly fake. I am still determined that by the end of this year...emetophobia will be a thing of my past.

Job Hunt

This just about sums up my feelings right now...

Diagnosis

You are infertile. Tubes blocked.

Sure, I am not and have not tried to get pregnant. It was the pains that brought me to the doctors for an answer.

For so long I was not believed about my pains. With age they are supposed to decrease. Instead, my pains just grew worse and worse and lasted longer and longer each time my cycles came around. Birth control pills didn't serve to help and I finally started to skip the sugar pills and never allowed the cycles to come just so I could actually live. I couldn't miss a week of school or work each month. It was futile. All my attempts to try and ease the pain did nothing.

Finally, two doctors and many appointments later, and with great fear, I had a hysteroscopy, laparoscopy and some sort of chromotubation.

Monday morning the 19th of May, 6AM, I am in the waiting room for surgery. They take me back, several people ask me questions, the same questions, over and over. Blood drawn, consent forms signed about religious observations of dead bodies and DNR and if I have a will or power of attorney should I die during this surgery.

Those consent forms always make you feel so much calmer right before you are about to be put under for surgery.

Hooked up and lady who took my blood bruised me. Taken back to surgery room, mask put on and boom, out. I remember then being wheeled back to my original room and asking for a mint. I wanted a damn mint. I started to gag related to my throat feeling so very weird. They gave me a barf bag, but I wasn't going to puke. I didn't actually feel sick. I did get some sprite out of the deal.

I also had to pee before leaving and it's weird having a nurse in the bathroom with you when you try to pee. It was very hard to pee too. Thanks a lot catheters. I did manage to pee a little though and then I was allowed to get dressed and go home. Also, the pain was awful. It hurt to get it up and move.

After I was dressed, the nurses helped me to my ride home. Once arrived, I went to sleep for a bit. Later watched a movie and then my gagging came back and lasted for hours. It was miserable and nothing helped. I never got sick though. When it finally eased a little, I went to sleep.

May 20...oh, the pain, the pain. Took the oxy they prescribed me as the motrin was not doing it for me. It did not help. Bladder still had some issues with needing a little push to go. My shoulder is also killing me. I dunno why it effects the shoulder, but it does.

May 21...still sore and pain meds still not helping. Lots of gas from both ends still. Bladder doing a little better. Took a stool softener as the pains are easing a bit.

May 22...bladder back to normal, but thanks to the stool softener, had a stomachache. Stool softener not yet working. Took gasx again due to gas pains and hoped it would stop the belly ache. My incision areas still hurt, but appeared to be healing well at this point. Do not feel well, so took it easy again, laid on the couch, watched netflix.

Note...Dulcolax is not good stuff. Nope, nope.

May 23...stomachache. One bm only. No appetite thanks to the stomachache. 

May 24-25...boyfriend and I hung out. Was a beautiful weekend and got some of my appetite back finally. Went to the local festival.

May 26-June 2...took it easy. No lifting and such allowed, but incisions were healing nicely and body was feeling better.

June 3...follow-up appointment where I am shown the pictures of my endometriosis and the inflammation inside. It was very ugly inside there. Not pretty. I won't share the pictures out of politeness. Also got to see the evil little martian, aka my tiny benign tumor.

The all clear to go back to life was given, but life has a new normal and I will be starting a new medication soon for my illness for six months. The tubes may be unable to be flushed without a reproductive endocrinologist's help.

End of May, time does fly...

So...what's been going on around here

I took my first ever flight. It was scary, but I did it. I only had one little panic attack on the way there. The trip was lots of fun and did a lot of walking too. It was to Washington D.C. I had never been before, so it was cool to finally go. Someone was protesting across the street from the White House and the flag was up, so it seems the President was home that day.

We also learned to never trust phone GPS walking routes. It's better to look at a map and see for yourself because GPS will take you the long way. We saw the National History Museum and Art museum and got yelled out for getting too close to the pictures, of which they do not have roped off, which is odd. Lots of people were getting yelled at, not just us, as there are old statues right in the middle and so much as walking around them a little too close got people in trouble. I really do not know why things were not roped off so there would not be any accidently getting too close, but what do I know.

Also, DC traffic/pedestrian crossing times were all out of whack.

The cherry blossoms were still in bloom when we went so we got some gorgeous pictures of the trees. And met a lovely lady in the process...aka, a very rude tourist,

The weather for us was wonderful, which was great. Also got to see a parade and watch poor people struggle with a stuck float. Oops.

Flight back hit some air pockets and we were in the back row, so felt the bumpy flight quite well.

Since then, finished up classes and my brother graduated high school. My sister is about to take her boards to get her nursing certification or something to that effect. I don't know how it works exactly, but apparently she can't be an RN until she passes some test, despite having a BSN.

I had surgery over a week ago and next Tuesday I will go for a final flushing and follow-up and should be all better for a time. I did get a diagnosis with the surgery and they actually removed a tiny tumor, which was benign, but ick. They gave me pictures of it and I named it the Evil Little Martian, because that's what it looks like.

I also found out that apparently I am missing one credit hour, so I am taking an Intro to Psychology CLEP exam on Friday. Hope I pass because I want that damn degree and not getting it for one credit hour for a class I don't even need, and not telling me I am missing one hour as classes end is just AHHHHHHHH.

Okay, better.

So, that's what's been happening. And job hunting. And helping my parents prepare to move. And puppy sitting my sister and her boyfriend's dog still. Other than that, rather boring.

Turning over a new leaf

I am changing the tone of this blog entirely to focus one thing...my anxiety, depression, OCD and panic disorder issues and phobias. I will be focusing on my recovery as I am working very hard on the recovery.

Per the previous post, I did not juice each day, got too busy, but definitely increased my fruit and vegetable and overall healthy food intake. I have not any potato chips besides Sunchips in about a month. I have been greatly decreasing my sugar and salt intake. I have not had any french fries for almost two weeks. Also been taking more calcium and magnesium and alfalfa capsules. And of course, trying to stay more active.

I will flying for the first time in about two weeks, a huge leap for me, but I am excited and nervous all in one.

I feel my vomit phobia is getting better. I am handling movie and tv show vomiting much, much better than I ever used to handle it. There was a top phobias list and emetophobia was on it and the clip was graphic, but I actually laughed at it...I laughed, me. That's such a huge leap of progress for me and I am hopeful for the future.

To better health...

I have decided it is time for a change. I am so tired of being so tired. I am tired of all the health issues and pains. So I am going to try something different. I am going to blend up fruits and veggies into a drink everyday for at least 10 days. One drink a day at least. I do not eat enough fruits and vegetables, so I plan to start my days with a drink of blended produce.

I started my juice drinks yesterday and will post pictures at the end of my week, also describing what I thought about the recipe. I do not own a juicer and feel like they won't keep much of the nutrients anyway, so I am blending them only to a liquid state. I see juicing is a big diet fad lately, however, starving yourself to lose weight seems like a bad idea personally. I can't see how it's healthy either. However, not trying to lose weight myself and as it's just regular produce mixed, I don't see the issue to try them as a supplement for healthier eating/drinking. I am eating regular meals, lots of healthier meals too, trying to eat mostly non-packaged foods and mostly fresh items as much as possible over the next 10 days as well. I plan on eating little meat, no soy except fermented soy products, many varied grains and beans/protein-rich legumes and I already can't eat dairy, so that's not an issue.

My big dog is getting too fat and her hips aren't doing well because of the added weight...so it's time for a change for her as well. We are going to start doing a daily walk around the block and she is not going to be allowed extra food like she has been given. It's vital she lose weight and I am aiming to help her lose at least 10 pounds.

So, eating healthier and staying fit...let's see if I feel any better or if my dog loses her 10 pounds by the time I take her to the vet for her lepto annual in a couple weeks.

Wish us both luck.

Over this shit...

I am so over this winter.
Done.
I cannot take any more days in the single digits, zero, or below zero temperatures.
I am so over scraping ice off my car and shoveling off snow and shoveling out and all the ice and snow period.
It's been arctic front after arctic front and snowstorm after snowstorm and our pipes and heating systems can't seem to take it.
February is looking a bit warmer, at least to start, so we are all crossing our fingers here that it will be...if not we may all just crack...like our pipes.

Why I Am A Feminist-Quotes to Ponder.

"Woman in her greatest perfection should have known that man was lord above her; and therefore that she should never have pretended any kind of superiority above him, no more than do the angels above God the Creator, or above Christ their head." `John Knox 1500s

"Woman is a stupid vessel over whom man must always hold power, for the man is higher and better than she; for the regiment and dominion belong to man as the head and master of the house." `Martin Luther

"The whole education of women ought to be relative to men. To please them, to be useful to them, to make themselves loved and honored by them, to educate them when young, to care for them when grown, to council them, to console them, and to make life agreeable and sweet to them—these are the duties of women at all times, and should be taught them from their infancy."
"Woman was made to yield to man and put up with his injustice."
`Jean-Jacques Rousseau

"Woman was merely man's helpmate, a function which pertains to her alone. She is not the image of God but as far as man is concerned, he is by himself the image of God." Augustine

"Every woman should be filled with shame by the thought that she is a woman."Clement of Alexandria

"Woman is slow in understanding and her unstable and naive mind renders her by way of natural weakness to the necessity of a strong hand in her husband. Her 'use' is two fold; [carnal] sex and motherhood."Pope Gregory I

For man was not created from woman, but woman from man;
Neither was man created on account of or for the benefit of woman, but woman on account of and for the benefit of man.
Therefore she should be subject to his authority and should have a covering on her head as a token, a symbol, of her submission to authority, that she may show reverence as do the angels and not displease them. 1 Corinthians 11;8-10

The women should keep quiet in the churches, for they are not authorized to speak, but should take a secondary and subordinate place, just as the Law also says.
But if there is anything they want to learn, they should ask their own husbands at home, for it is disgraceful [a shame] for a woman to talk in church for her to usurp and exercise authority over men in the church 1 Corinthians 11;34-35

God’s sentence hangs still over all your sex and His punishment weighs down upon you. You are the devil’s gateway; you are she who first violated the forbidden tree and broke the law of God. It was you who coaxed your way around him whom the devil had not the force to attack. With what ease you shattered that image of God: Man! Because of the death you merited, even the Son of God had to die... Woman, you are the gate to hell.
Woman is a temple built over a sewer.  Tertullian, “the father of Latin Christianity” 

Woman is a misbegotten man and has a faulty and defective nature in comparison to his. Therefore she is unsure in herself. What she cannot get, she seeks to obtain through lying and diabolical deceptions. And so, to put it briefly, one must be on one's guard with every woman, as if she were a poisonous snake and the horned devil. ... Thus in evil and perverse doings woman is cleverer, that is, slyer, than man. Her feelings drive woman toward every evil, just as reason impels man toward all good. –Saint Albertus Magnus, Dominican theologian

As regards the individual nature, woman is defective and misbegotten, for the active force in the male seed tends to the production of a perfect likeness in the masculine sex; while the production of woman comes from a defect in the active force or from some material indisposition, or even from some external influence. –Thomas Aquinas, Doctor of the Church

  The word and works of God is quite clear, that women were made either to be wives or prostitutes. – Martin Luther

 No gown worse becomes a woman than the desire to be wise. – Martin Luther

   Men have broad and large chests, and small narrow hips, and more understanding than women, who have but small and narrow breasts, and broad hips, to the end they should remain at home, sit still, keep house, and bear and bring up children. – Martin Luther

  Thus the woman, who had perversely exceeded her proper bounds, is forced back to her own position. She had, indeed, previously been subject to her husband, but that was a liberal and gentle subjection; now, however, she is cast into servitude. –John Calvin

 as the church must fear Christ Jesus, so must the wives also fear their husbands. And this inward fear must be shewed by an outward meekness and lowliness in her speeches and carriage to her husband. . . . For if there be not fear and reverence in the inferior, there can be no sound nor constant honor yielded to the superior. – John Dod, A Plain and Familiar Exposition of the Ten Commandments

  The root of masculine is stronger, and of feminine weaker. The sun is a governing planet to certain planets, while the moon borrows her light from the sun, and is less or weaker- Joseph Smith

The Holiness of God is not evidenced in women when they are brash, brassy, boisterous, brazen, head-strong, strong-willed, loud-mouthed, overly-talkative, having to have the last word, challenging, controlling, manipulative, critical, conceited, arrogant, aggressive, assertive, strident, interruptive, undisciplined, insubordinate, disruptive, dominating, domineering, or clamoring for power. Rather, women accept God’s holy order and character by being humbly and unobtrusively respectful and receptive in functional subordination to God, church leadership, and husbands. --James Fowler, Women in the Church

 "We should look upon the female state as it were a deformity, though one that occurs in the ordinary course of nature" -ARISTOTLE

 "Educating a woman is like pouring honey over a fine Swiss watch. It stops working" -KURT VONNEGUT

  "The souls of women are so small, Some believe they have none at all." -JOHN DONNE (British Poet 1573-1631)

"Girls begin to talk and stand sooner on their feet than boys, because weeds always grow more quickly than good crops" -MARTIN LUTHER 

"Direct thought is not an attribute of femininity. In this, woman is now centuries...behind men."-THOMAS ALVA EDISON

The feminist agenda is not about equal rights for women. It is about a socialist, anti-family political movement that encourages women to leave their husbands, kill their children, practice witchcraft, destroy capitalism, and become lesbians. Pat Robertson

Feminism was established to allow unattractive women easier access to the mainstream.
Rush Limbaugh

I listen to feminists and all these radical gals -- most of them are failures. They've blown it. Some of them have been married, but they married some Casper Milquetoast who asked permission to go to the bathroom. These women just need a man in the house. That's all they need. Most of the feminists need a man to tell them what time of day it is and to lead them home. And they blew it and they're mad at all men. Feminists hate men. They're sexist. They hate men -- that's their problem. -Jerry Falwell

"God protect us from the efficient, go-getter businesswoman whose feminine instincts have been completely sterilized. Wherever women are functioning, whether in the home or in a job, they must remember that their chief function as women is a capacity for warm, understanding and charitable human relationships."
Some very interesting facts have been uncovered by scientists which will feminists will have to treat very gingerly for they show that it is not merely society which determines how the sexes will behave.... The idea of matriarchy is mythical, I’ve learned, for not one that can be documented has ever existed. Doesn’t it seem strange that male dominance has been universal if it’s purely social conditioning? One would expect to see at least a few examples of societies where women rather than men held the positions of highest status.... Isn’t’ it really much easier to believe that the feelings of men and women throughout history bear a direct relationship to some innate prerequisite? ... It was God who made us different, and He did it on purpose. Recent scientific research is illuminating, and as has happened before, corroborates ancient truth which mankind has always recognized. God created male and female, the male to call forth, to lead, initiate and rule, and the female to respond, follow adapt, submit."
~ Elisabeth Elliot

"If you women continue to demand your choice to work, you will so upset the economy of this country that the time will come when you will not have a choice. You will have to work."
~ Helen Andelin
   

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